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It’s weird how the platform dictates posting habits — I used to post fairly regularly ish on LJ back in the day when that was just how things went, but ever since using Tumblr I’ve gotten into the habit of just reblogging other people’s content and not creating my own. Possibly because my life is... uh, not that interesting. Bad brains mean that I’m largely withdrawing from the world even as I’m trying hard not to, but I just don’t have the energy to do much other than function and go to work in the evenings and write Atlas and occasionally do the social thing and go to physical therapy and brain therapy, which as I write it I realize is a lot, but I still can’t shake the feeling that I should be doing more. I used to be able to do a lot more. It feels weird to say I’m still in mourning for who I used to be and the life I led, because a) I wasn’t happy then either, and b) I’m actually better than I was even last year, if not back to where I was. I want to believe that I can get to a place where I’m satisfied with my life. Is that so much to ask of the universe? Or of myself?
In exciting news, I might be going back to school in the fall, though! I’m strongly considering becoming an occupational therapy assistant. So that’s cool.
In exciting news, I might be going back to school in the fall, though! I’m strongly considering becoming an occupational therapy assistant. So that’s cool.
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Date: 2019-02-17 02:34 am (UTC)Yay, school! That might help you feel a little more at ease with where you are in your life, having a goal to work toward n all. I'm going back to school in the fall myself and it helps me feel like im not a total lost cause.
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Date: 2019-02-17 06:16 pm (UTC)I’m sure hoping it’ll help me give some direction. There’s so much logistics involved — I definitely have to do a career switch in the meantime because my current job (theatre technician) isn’t well paying or compatible with a student schedule, so maybe that means I look for jobs at universities or hospitals, and then I have to decide on where I’m going for the program and whether I want an OTA license or an OT license and tuition and financial aid and DARS and it’s... A Lot, especially while I’m currently in a fatigue trench for whatever reason. But I can do it! I hope!
What are you going back to school for?
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Date: 2019-02-17 07:16 pm (UTC)i hear you on the money struggle. im currently looking for a new job as well since the one im currently have has no room for growth or getting a raise. i hope you find a better paying job! i dont know if the program youre looking at doing is in-person or online but getting a job at the school could be useful, since youre going to be there anyways. i believe in you!
i'm going back to school for my MLIS - Master's in Library and Information Science. i initially wanted to be a librarian either in a public library or an academic one but i've settle on specializing in archival work - either for universities or museums. the whole idea of preserving knowledge and history really appeals to the anthropologist in me.
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Date: 2019-02-19 02:19 am (UTC)working for a cosmic eldritch horror sounds like a dream to me lol. every day at work would be an adventure.
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Date: 2019-02-17 06:57 am (UTC)I, too, was enabled by the firehose of tumblr to draw back into my little eel hole and rarely post my own words. That's nice when I don't have many words to spare, but I think I could learn some writing stuff by stretching a little and posting my own thoughts more often. One nice thing compared to my 2011 self is that I am not so embarassed by what I write, not feeling the need to try so hard anymore. So, my earnest goal is to make my dreamwidth an absolute fount of stream-of-consciousness shitposts :D especially zero-context shitposts about the current WIPs or writing in general
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Date: 2019-02-17 06:19 pm (UTC)Yessssss shitpost away. And lol I totally get the feeling of “thoughts? Words? What are those?”