I bought an EZ Lite folding power wheelchair last week. It's a weird thing to be self-conscious of considering that I already have a mobility scooter, but it feels like a step that I don't deserve to take somehow, like disability is something I'm just playing dress-up in instead of something that hugely affects my life and the choices I make every day and will definitely affect my experience on the trip that I'm going on in May. Maybe it's that being a part-time ambulatory wheelchair user is so much scarier than being a part-time ambulatory scooter user and I'm afraid that people will think I'm faking and get angry at me when  I stand up and walk a bit. I don't think my family is very supportive of it, even though I've explained that taking Scoot on public transit is awful and it breaks down into pieces but can't lift them in and out of a car by myself and thus the circumstances in which Scoot is really useable are limited.

I guess I can comfort myself with the fact that the chair is a $2,300 model that I got for $150 plus another $100 to repair the left wheel motor and get new tires, which is objectively a fantastic deal and I can probably resell it if it turns out that I don't/can't use it -- it's not a terribly powerful motor and it's really designed more for indoor use than the outdoor use I need it for, but I'll take it for a proper test drive once the new motor gets here and we'll see.

Weird migraine things: feeling like the right side of your face is melting off your skull even though you know that it absolutely isn’t. Also, muscle spasms so bad that you look like the top half of you is having a seizure while you’re walking to work. I’m continually amused at how determined city dwellers are to just Not See weird stuff, but there are a lot of homeless people in this neighborhood, so I suppose people are used to ignoring people who are acting strangely or asking them for money.