I'm always playing around with what of Ruby's canon I accept and reject in my own personal head canon (which, well, I do with all of the characters, but she's probably at the top of the pile for variety in what makes it in on any given day) THIS. Ruby is one of those characters that can be taken/written so many different directions, which is interesting, given she has a pretty distinct personality. (As much as the writers give any female love interest, anyway. It's only the older women - Ellen, Pamela, Missouri - that are downright firm in characterization, though they pretty much have only one track, too. One of these days, I would love to see a mother-daughter combination that doesn't fall into the tough-as-nails older woman + malleable young one. But ANYWAYS -) It's a product of us not being told a lot about her, but I feel like this is also the case because she's already got all those roads within herself - a thousand warring forces urging her this way and that, nature in competition with inclination, personal love with divine love, kindness with cruelty, self-interest with sacrifice.
And that was sort of the point of this mix. Personally, I don't believe that Ruby does things largely for herself - as much as she might want that to be true, and as easier as it would make her life. She makes a show of being her own first priority - especially in front of the people whom it would matter, i.e. Winchesters, Castiel, other demons - and she's got some sense of self-preservation, but if she really was that self-centered, she wouldn't have gone to such lengths for Lucifer, or risked herself over and over (sometimes unnecessarily to her cause) for Sam. This is another inner war; I doubt she can reconcile being a demon gets out of bed in the morning for someone else. And when people write her, they usually write that someone else as Sam, but I wanted a... different look. (Of course, I have a feeling that Ruby thinks it's very convenient that Sam is going to be Lucifer's meatsuit, so when her lord rises and takes possession of him, she can have them both - no conflicts, no sense of betraying one for the other. And I wonder, if in the early hours of the morning, when Sam's restlessly asleep and she's awake, dreaming out the future, it ever crosses her mind that having Sam's body isn't the same as having Sam.)
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Date: 2010-06-25 09:48 pm (UTC)I'm always playing around with what of Ruby's canon I accept and reject in my own personal head canon (which, well, I do with all of the characters, but she's probably at the top of the pile for variety in what makes it in on any given day) THIS. Ruby is one of those characters that can be taken/written so many different directions, which is interesting, given she has a pretty distinct personality. (As much as the writers give any female love interest, anyway. It's only the older women - Ellen, Pamela, Missouri - that are downright firm in characterization, though they pretty much have only one track, too. One of these days, I would love to see a mother-daughter combination that doesn't fall into the tough-as-nails older woman + malleable young one. But ANYWAYS -) It's a product of us not being told a lot about her, but I feel like this is also the case because she's already got all those roads within herself - a thousand warring forces urging her this way and that, nature in competition with inclination, personal love with divine love, kindness with cruelty, self-interest with sacrifice.
And that was sort of the point of this mix. Personally, I don't believe that Ruby does things largely for herself - as much as she might want that to be true, and as easier as it would make her life. She makes a show of being her own first priority - especially in front of the people whom it would matter, i.e. Winchesters, Castiel, other demons - and she's got some sense of self-preservation, but if she really was that self-centered, she wouldn't have gone to such lengths for Lucifer, or risked herself over and over (sometimes unnecessarily to her cause) for Sam. This is another inner war; I doubt she can reconcile being a demon gets out of bed in the morning for someone else. And when people write her, they usually write that someone else as Sam, but I wanted a... different look. (Of course, I have a feeling that Ruby thinks it's very convenient that Sam is going to be Lucifer's meatsuit, so when her lord rises and takes possession of him, she can have them both - no conflicts, no sense of betraying one for the other. And I wonder, if in the early hours of the morning, when Sam's restlessly asleep and she's awake, dreaming out the future, it ever crosses her mind that having Sam's body isn't the same as having Sam.)