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I thought that after two years of using mobility aids of increasing levels (cane, then forearm crutches, then mobility scooter, recently rollator) I'd gotten over the internalized shame and self-consciousness of using them, but I apparently haven't, especially around people who know me and especially now that I'm doing somewhat better health-wise. I have more energy than I used to so I feel like I'm not sick enough anymore to be as tired as I still am and using mobility aids is just making a big deal out of nothing, and it's like I'm back to square one on all the emotional work I did to let myself use them in the first place.